My brain is full. And tired. And weepy.
a bunch of very disjointed thoughts will follow… be forewarned.
Maddy had an epic fail day in jazz today. She has a fairly new teacher who decided that putting her BACK a level in jazz to be with OLIVIA would be a good idea. They “restructured” a bunch of kids but her whole class moved forward without her. This is a big mistake on their parts obviously. They want Maddy to try this class out and then if it’s too easy (which it will be) they’ll move her back up. Grand scheme of things not a big deal… but she’s crushed so i am crushed FOR her and it’s just one more thing to add to my list of things to worry about.
Female issues are issuing right now. I have cramps so bad it’s hard to breathe and am bleeding so incredibly much it’s insane. Makes me want to lay down and cry (more…)
I have an EPIC bad cough so every time I lay down to sleep my lungs wheeze and crack and I am short of breath. After having double pneumonia I’m a little leery about leaving this kind of stuff and so now I’m worried it’s bigger than just a cold.
I fail at weight loss right now. I need to find a way to GET into my eating groove. Instead I coast… and don’t go anywhere.
Dogs. Let’s just say that there are days that I want to spay/neuter everyone here or send them back and never do this again. I get myself into situations that I’m not happy with and then can’t get out. I end up making people mad, having people distrust me and always always always am stuck in the middle of some controversy. Dog people suck sometimes. I feel like I am always making the wrong decisions and am ALWAYS getting treated like I’m 18 and don’t know jack shit.
Daycare: clients having to find nanny’s, employment problems, clients cutting hours… all those leading to lots of daycare interviews (which I HATE) and having to find more clients and work more than I really want to.
have to buy: Joey ($1500), snow tires ($1000), dance stuff ($1200), Christmas pressies, etc etc etc. Jeff has two trips coming up, I have groove and dog obedience to pay for. This . Is . Insane . right now.
Right now? I want to: take the kids out of dance, buy a cheaper vehicle, buy a house at a lake, quit doing daycare, spay the girls I have and send Joey back, homeschool my kids and become a hermit. Maybe a hermit with some land and a couple of horses.
fml. seriously. I’m not happy. At all.
